i have begun my work. i've tried to do this many times before, and always failed, and always been discouraged and quit recording music for a few weeks to a few months. but something about this time -- i suppose my methods and skills have just hit the threshold of being 'good enough' to record. also, i keep thinking of a dialogue that goes something like this:<br>
'it's been a while since you picked up those drumsticks. did you quit?'<br>
'yes. because i'll never be as good as the greats. there's no point in trying.'<br>
'what, do you think just because you're not as good as buddy rich, they're all gonna laugh down at you and tell you you're shit at music? hell, we all know that bob dylan wasn't as good a guitar player as jimi hendrix, but we all love'm. you think bob dylan would've got started with music if his first thought was, "i can never be as good as that other guy?" no. we all know he'd be a train-hopping hobo if not for him putting himself out there. even if no-one listens, you'll learn how to appeal to people as well as yourself.'<br>
the point here is: music isn't about being good. and even though i can think a thousand times, "it doesn't have to be perfect," that's easier said than done. and now, since i feel that this time is really different, i'm not just gonna let it collect dust because i'm not any proud of it. this time, i'm atually gonna release it out to the world and see what people think. i feel that my writing, especially for the second track, is pretty riveting. and i've gotten good enough at the keyboards to be able to have my own distinct sound. bass, drums, keys, vocals, partridge in a pear tree. and i mean, it won't be as much of a piece of cake as i make it sound, certainly won't think it's the best thing ever when i'm done. but again, that's the point. perfect music is:<br>
a. impossible<br>
b. lifeless<br>